new years was surprisingly not spent alone. my parents completely ruined my plans for the night, saying I couldnt go out. but I could have people over. I invited betsey and dustin over, was cool. though we couldnt leave my kitchen, cause my parents are retraded and think I'll have sex or something upstairs cause dustin's a BOY. oh god, not that! haha. anyways, they left little after 10. my parents went to bed round then so I had the house to myself basically. justine went to sleep after coming home round 11. adam and katie went to a friend's house, or they went out to some places. james probably went out drinking. but yeah...

round 11:30 or so I was talking to dustin and he decided he was going to stop by and to meet me outside at 5 of 12. haha, so I did. but i had t o bring my dog out as my excuse if I was caught going outside. so we spent the ten minutes before and after or so outside in the cold. haha, woo! at least we werent alone. it was so quiet out though. I had hung out with him last wednesday. we just went for a random car drive, got lost in springfield for an hour or so in the dark. hahaha...came back to longmeadow and he gave me my first driving lesson. FUN, but i kind of freaked out when i went over a curb when I turned into a parking lot. if you were wondering he's 17.

but yeah. vacation was actually pretty good. busy too. i only stayed home all day on monday. mostly hung out with betsey :) i have a HUGE ass religion project to do for friday and I need to get most of it done today/tomorrow...megan got back from canada last night, and want to hang out today. and taylor invited me out tomorrow...MY GOD. this is good. i seriously think this vacation has made me happy. Im pretty much over him and what he did, and what he didnt do too. at least we still talk. Im feeling pretty good, tired though, and bit antsy bout that project.

there's so much more i could say. but i know ill always remember this vacation and last night. I know who I am. I know how I am.  Novemebr was absolutely THE worst time of my life, and part of the beginning of december. Ill admit it was depressing and I was depressed. but hey, every one has those times in life. I gave things time, and all that, and time did return the favor. pshyar!

yar. Im out...happy new years

here are some new ones. omfg. Ive been taking so many pictures lately with my new camera.

^ one of betsey's cats.

thats it for now...there are too many to choose from!

well.

hello guys...been a while hasn't it?

LOTS has happened. and I do mean alot. in november I transfered high schools, turned 16, started to loose friends (and did), got a new awesome camera, made some pretty cool friends. had my heart broken in december, a boring uneventful christmas, in both months alot of drama (family and friends) and some other things.

I guess you could say life sure can change dramatically, really fast.

Im not feeling so great recently, actually, ever since that day I was told I was transferring schools, my life did a complete 180 you could say...less than 5 people actually talk to me from my old school now adays, like they just abandoned our friendship because i go to another school now. I gave into a boy, for the second time, only to be left guessing and standing on a cliff. kind of sucks I'd say. specially when you almost said to them those 3 words after they kissed you, after you cried in their arms cause you miss them so much...and I think his mind is on another girl, though Im not sure.

hell, whatever. ive been punched repeatedly with the fist of reality a number of times, specially during the month of november. Ive come to known the real person inside of some people that called themselves a friend.

well. i have track practice in the morning...i better get going.

i guess Im back for the time being I suppose...hope all you are doing good.

oh, and my god I have SO many new pictures. this camera is freaken awesome